There comes a point in everyone’s life where we must grow up. Sometimes people are forced to grow up too early. Some people never grow up.
Although I had to mature in a lot of areas early, I still can be extremely immature. I have a lot of immature things about me. I’m loud, obnoxious, condescending, rude, and I can be extremely mean. The most immature thing about me is the fact that I’m still on this place.
Back in 2005 I created a roleplay account with a friend of mine, and I ended up being the only one who went on it. I was eleven years old. I would leave for 6+ months and I never got attached to the people on roleplay until around 2010, when I made a new group of friends who changed the way I viewed roleplay.
I’ve learned a lot of things on roleplay. I’ve learned a lot of bad things, but I’ve learned a couple of good things I’ll always keep with me. I think the most important thing I’ve learned is to not be afraid to be myself, even though I was great at masking that I wasn’t.
I’m an adult now. I don’t need to be on here anymore. If you’re 22 and over still on this place, and you don’t have a job or you’re not going to school, there’s something seriously wrong with you. You should take my lead and leave also. It’s extremely weird to be hanging out with children who are so much younger than you in such an immature place. In all honesty it’s about time you’ve done something with your life. Consider this a wake up call- what are you going to be doing in 5 years? You’re wasting your prime time to build an impressive resume so you can hopefully leave this place with some sort of purpose in life, and you’re not living off of my tax payer money. Despite the numerous reasons you may have to not get a job or do anything, you need to find ways around them. Or you’ll just end up broke in life.
I am not bashing the people who don’t have money, which is where a lot of people take offense when I say this, especially to some of the people on here. I grew up in a conservative family that firmly believed in making something of yourself. I was taught to believe that even if you come from nothing, with hard work and determination you can become something. My family has done it. They’ve been through hell and back, worse than what you guys may complain about in your lives, but they still managed to turn themselves into something great. I’m a firm believer of the American dream, even as a first generation child on one side of my family.
In my life I’ve also learned that I’m not entitled to anything- and you guys shouldn’t feel that way either. You need to realize for everything great in life you must earn it. You can’t rely on hand outs and what other people do for you, and you need to learn to be self sufficient. Be independent.
Then again, that may be too much to ask of you guys since all you are is dependent. You’re dependent on whoever is the most relevant and the way you subject yourselves to other people disgusts me. It disgusts me because it shows me how ignorant society is and it scares me that you’re all easily manipulated. Plus a vast majority of you guys are simple minded which worries me even more, which means you’re also easier for someone to take advantage of you and have total control over you. You only care about yourselves and what will benefit you guys in the moment. Wake up and smell the coffee. There’s so much going on that you guys are so ignorant to. Hopefully you will change, because I’m scared for our society in the future.
Going on to another point, I know that I have not been the easiest person to tolerate. I’m arrogant, rude, and obnoxious. I know I am, and I’m not afraid to admit it. I do things in order to get what I want. I annoyed everyone because I found it hilarious to watch everyone’s reaction. You guys must think I’m stupid if you didn’t think I knew that the way I acted bothered you all so much. I’m not stupid. The human psyche is so predictable- especially instances when I’m dealing with a lot of people who are so indolent. I know what gets underneath your skin and I know what will bother you. I’m a lot more intelligent than I lead on and I’ve played a lot of mind games with people myself.
I’m actually extremely humble when you get to know me, but my pompous attitude was really just a way to piss people off.
I know that you guys are probably thinking “oh she’ll be back tomorrow” or whatever but I truly do feel done with roleplay at this point in my life. I’m leaving on my own, because simply I find this boring and you all have such disgusting morale I cannot continue to associate myself in the same category as you. Supporting/actually doing some of the things done on here makes me sick to my stomach. I hope if you ever do this in the real world you get knocked out. I’m going on the bigger things than roleplay, and I can’t have this as a main part of my life anymore.
I’m not saying that I’ll never come back, maybe I’ll come back when I have a long break, but it’ll be as if an alumni goes and visits his old high school. Just to check up on everyone and see how they’re doing.
Something I wish I knew sooner that I hope you guys remember is that being strong doesn’t mean you always have to fight the battle. True strength is being adult enough to walk away from the nonsense with your head held high.
Being “queen” on roleplay has been fun, I guess. The title had its ups and downs. If anyone cares, I give my title to Minty Vigalitore. Not just because she’s my family and one of my good friends, but because she has what it takes. She’s young and doesn’t need to cosign on to other people and she can fight her own battles. She’s one of the strongest people I know, and I have a ton of love and respect for her. I always will, despite anything. She can hold her own and she doesn’t have to hide behind anyone else. She’s not afraid to be who she is and doesn’t need approval from anyone else.
I hope I’ve haven’t pissed you all off too much roleplay. Until we meet again.